We should bring back the phrase, “Lord willing”. Moderns of all stripes put far too much emphasis on being self-directed and self-realized, when we have nothing to do with most of the variables that we plan our days and years around. God controls *everything*.
James 4:14 Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away. 15 Instead, you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and also do this or that.” 16 But as it is, you boast in your arrogance; all such boasting is evil. (NASB)
So. I’ve had that tiny little snippet in the back of my head to post…. and God throws me a curveball.
I’m in a transitional place, my life-seasons are changing around. And my husband has made it clear to me that he’d like me to become much more dynamic – more alpha, if you will. (My husband is extremely dominant.) He wants to see me take action, follow through on things, make things move. I *hate* that stuff. I’ll make a plan, I’ll do the work, but …. pester other people to work? Ugh. But he wants it – and that’s where we are, with a young teen and a tween. I need to put some fire under all our rears.
The good part about this is that I know that in my flesh I can’t do it. Straight up, it’s been tried before, I get cranky, I get domineering (rather than dominant), I get OCD – nothing good. I know that my flesh can’t do this. BUT – I can do anything through Christ who strengthens me. So I’m going to have to lean on Him! And nothing but good can come from that.
I’m supposed to be doing this with church and with my social life too – church wants me to run a Christian book club in my house. And I am learning how to do social conversation – I do *know* how to be charming… I just find it tiring/boring. But all things through Christ’s strength – I can’t bless anyone with my gifts of encouragement and counsel if I’m staring at the clouds or at my purse the whole time.
Seriously – between God and the hubs, I feel like I’ve been sent Athol’s list of Alpha traits to work on… “wear makeup” “be charming” “work out/find a sport that you enjoy” “follow up, follow through, make it happen”. Nothing my head doesn’t understand… a whole lot that my slothful heart would just as soon not mess with.
Ironic, much – to write so much about surfing God’s will and just following the wave where it leads, and find that it leads straight up a steep slope?
Ah, our Lord does have a sense of humor!