You know a few things… you know that the end will be good.
You can see how things are being put in place – just exactly so – so that SOMETHING is going to be reaped. Stones in the river ahead of you that you’re crossing. A step, then another… but you can’t see very far. What lies ahead? How far is the other side?
The temptation is to see those bits as pieces of a puzzle, and to try to figure out what is missing. What is to be seen. To figure out the next thing that will happen, the next step, so as to prepare oneself.
You want. Oh, you want. You want the things you tell everyone about, and the things that you don’t. (The things that you tell, less so).
And you forget.
You’re not just piecing your puzzle. In fact, you’re not just crossing your river a stone at a time.
You’re in a dance. A dance with every other person in the universe, and you’re not the star of the show. Or the not-star, for that matter.
You want to know, so that you can see where to put your foot next – but you’re not competent to have that information. You would stop before you performed the grande’ jete’ – not thinking yourself able to leap so far. Only your Creator knows your abilities and your limitations, how the wind of someone else’s passing will lift you higher or when to bow your head so that you will slip out of the way.
It’s not just that faith is a virtue, it’s that you can’t give yourself fully to the dance without it… and don’t you want to dance?